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Alive
Do you know what it's like to live and lose,
Or to even die while you're alive?
We all live like we're happy,
But so many are screaming on the inside.
These silent screams may one day set us free.
One day we may feel alive.
One day, we will be alive.
I don't feel like I'm alive,
I feel as if I'm simply breathing.
It's not like I can wake up,
I'm not dreaming.
Some are afraid of death,
But not me.
I will accept it,
I will embrace,
For I have already experienced it.
These crazy thoughts won't leave my head.
Am I alive or am I dead?
I can smile all I want,
But that doesn't make it real.
I haven't been myself lately,
I think there's a stranger inside of me.
I know I have to be strong.
I've gotta be for them,
For him,
For her,
For you,
And perhaps even for me,
But it's so much easier to give up.
I've been strong for so long,
I just can't keep it up any longer.
Things get rough for my friends,
I tell them it'll be alright.
I'm their shoulder to cry on,
And I'll never let them hurt themselves
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Hope
As I leave my broken home behind,
I  began to feel as if I'm sucked into the sunset,
I'm vanishing into air.
I feel like I'm seeing the light of day for the first time.
Suddenly I begin to feel truly free.
As I'm filled with an overwhelming sensation,
I wonder what it could be.
I sit and think,
Surrounded by the refreshing air.
I wander through a forest,
I listen to every sound carefully.
I could hear birds singing happily,
I heard a river gently flowing.
I listen to the wind rustle to grass.
And, I swore I could almost hear the sun,
Whispering something to me,
Though I could not understand what.
I was so used to darkness,
That the light was shocking.
This feeling was frightening,
Almost even suffocating.
I had gotten so use to pain and sorrow,
That this feeling felt alien to me.
I tried to fight it at first,
But eventually I began to like it.
I shoved away my insecurities,
I let in the confidence.
I saw my reflection in a river,
I looked sad,
Almost pathetic even.
But, still, the
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Happiness
I am not happy,
But I will continue to be.
And maybe some day,
You'll find someone who loves you
Like I do...
And if you don't listen to me,
We can be perfectly happy.
It's hard to hide it,
How I fake my affection.
I ignore you,
Pretend that you're nothing.
It's worthless;
It's pointless.
Please don't listen to me,
We can always be perfectly happy.
Happiness is all that matters,
Though our love is left in tatters.
I gave up this war,
There's simply no point anymore.
If I ignore we were something,
Maybe it'll be like we were never anything.
I'm killing myself.
This will never be the same.
We'll never love each other as we once had.
You can fight till the end of the world,
But when it's done,
No one will have won.
Please dont listen to me,
I want us to be perfectly happy.
But happiness is gone,
The curtain will fall,
The finale has come.
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Better Off Without Me
I can't breathe,
I'm cracking beneath the pressure.
With a heavy heart,
I begin to realize I've fallen out of love.
All the butterflies in my stomach,
All the sparks that once danced between us,
Every word left unsaid
Has become another regret in my head.
In the midst of our passion,
Our love led us astray.
Our hearts became ablaze,
And my heart burned to ashes.
I was your harlequin
But you were the true fool.
I left you alone in the stage,
You were left abandoned.
As all the words I could have said
Begin to fill up my head,
I learn that some things
Are better left unsaid.
No respect, there's nothing left
But regret.
And maybe that's what I get
For letting my heart burst.
Through our first kiss,
I was filled with bliss.
But now, the thought is tearing me up inside,
I can no longer hide.
I wonder if you know
That soon I'll go.
I'm sorry to leave you all alone,
But you're better off without me.
Yeah, you're better off without me
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Passion
I find it hard to breathe as you tower over me.
I begin to crack under the pressure
And I scream at my suppressor
They say perfection is what we should aim for.
Being acclaimed for what we have done,
Mindlessly, never really living.
They're never truly forgiving.
As you fall,
They'll point and laugh.
Then you begin to feel so small.
The heart that once burned for their passions
Became nothing but ashes.
They'll never understand
What I withstand.
No, they'll never understand.
She sits alone at night crying,
Trying to understand her plight.
They screamed at her dreadful things.
Every word is another scar on her wrist
As she clings to the knife in her hand.
The heart that once aspired to be what they wanted
Turned to nothing but ashes.
She screamed and screamed
For them to simply understand.
But they'll never understand;
They'll never truely care.
He's lying in his bed,
Trying to fight the demons in his head.
Trying to distract,
He can no longer hold back.
He sang his heart out,
Making mu
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Thorns
I accept the roses,
Ignoring the thorns.
I ignore the pain as you cut me deep.
Beautiful scars across my broken heart.
This pain is endless.
Their screaming is ceaseless.
Calling me so many horrible things.
They say "I love you,"
Bearing a smile.
The roses they gave me flourish.
Through silent screams,
I plead.
The more they "love" me,
The more it hurts.
I can never be free.
Every night we cry.
No one sees us,
No one hears us.
We never open up,
Every time we do, our hearts are torn apart.
No one knows who we are.
The once pure hearts are now blackened and scarred,
With every mistake we've made.
Our hearts are ours to reclaim.
Everyone we've ever loved had toyed with us;
We're simply play things.
Lost all hope,
Our eyes stare blank,
Devoid of everything we once knew.
Our hearts are broken,
Our souls are shattered.
We are broken.
They'll never live without us.
These roses are endless
Pricking our fingers,
The thorns cut like their words.
Scars across our hearts,
Hoping to one day be free
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Do you know what it's like to live and lose,
Or to even die while you're alive?
We all live like we're happy,
But so many are screaming on the inside.
These silent screams may one day set us free.
One day we may feel alive.
One day, we will be alive.

I don't feel like I'm alive,
I feel as if I'm simply breathing.
It's not like I can wake up,
I'm not dreaming.
Some are afraid of death,
But not me.
I will accept it,
I will embrace,
For I have already experienced it.

These crazy thoughts won't leave my head.
Am I alive or am I dead?
I can smile all I want,
But that doesn't make it real.
I haven't been myself lately,
I think there's a stranger inside of me.

I know I have to be strong.
I've gotta be for them,
For him,
For her,
For you,
And perhaps even for me,
But it's so much easier to give up.
I've been strong for so long,
I just can't keep it up any longer.

Things get rough for my friends,
I tell them it'll be alright.
I'm their shoulder to cry on,
And I'll never let them hurt themselves.
I wish I was thr same with myself.
I couldn't save myself if I tried.

I can't hold on, after all,
I have nothing to hold on to.
I have no hope left,
For I gave it all away to my friends.
I'd rather see them alive and happy,
Than see me the same way.

I will ask once more,
Do you know what it's like to live and lose,
Or to die while you're still alive?
I may breathe, but I am not alive.
I've screamed and screamed about how I'm not alright,
But I've never been able to get help.

If I try to die,
I get called nothing more than an attention whore.
If I stay alive,
I'm told I'm not enough
And that I simply don't try hard enough.

I am sick of not being enough.

I won't miss this,
How could I miss something I never had?
I won't be happy either way.

I'm sick of tearing my heart open to fix others
When all they do it break me.
As I leave my broken home behind,
I  began to feel as if I'm sucked into the sunset,
I'm vanishing into air.
I feel like I'm seeing the light of day for the first time.
Suddenly I begin to feel truly free.

As I'm filled with an overwhelming sensation,
I wonder what it could be.
I sit and think,
Surrounded by the refreshing air.
I wander through a forest,
I listen to every sound carefully.

I could hear birds singing happily,
I heard a river gently flowing.
I listen to the wind rustle to grass.
And, I swore I could almost hear the sun,
Whispering something to me,
Though I could not understand what.

I was so used to darkness,
That the light was shocking.
This feeling was frightening,
Almost even suffocating.
I had gotten so use to pain and sorrow,
That this feeling felt alien to me.

I tried to fight it at first,
But eventually I began to like it.
I shoved away my insecurities,
I let in the confidence.

I saw my reflection in a river,
I looked sad,
Almost pathetic even.
But, still, the suffocating feeling never left.
Though, I wanted it to stay,
It was a good feeling.

I found myself sitting,
Gently picking flowers,
Making a crown out of them.
I planted it on my head,
And I felt beautiful for the first time in forever.

I sighed out, deeply.
I closed my eyes as the sun now began to set fully,
And I watched as stars began to appear.

I listened once more:
The birds had silenced,
Now they began to sleep huddled up into their nests.
I heard the river sleeping calmly.
The wind was much more gentle, almost unnoticable,
But still there.
I felt as if I could ride it to tomorrow.

Then, as I listened more carefully,
I was able to make out the stars,
Softly whispering into the night.

They were repeating a short, simple word:
Hope
Hope
A piece I made in dedication to my one and only best friend forever and ever, Isabelle. She's going through a hard time and needs hope, so I am determined to be that hope.
Also, if there is anyone else out there going through a hard time, no matter how hard it may be, I will be able to talk to you. I am willing to be anyone's hope. I want to be able to help everyone who feels like they mean nothing feel something.
I'm sick of being able to say that I'm always sad because of my depression, so I'm starting now to fight it. I will beat it and I won't let it take control of me, no, not again. I'm sick of it feeding my anxiety and chronic fatigue, so I'm fighting back.
I will have hope.
Please, always have hope in tomorrow, for it will always be there for you.
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Freedom
"And it began to feel as if I'm sucked into the sunset, I vanishing into air. Suddenly I begin to feel truly free."

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BATTLEFAIRIES Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2017
Thank you for Favouriting my work! This means you can now ask the Djinn ONE question. The Djinn will answer truthfully and to the best of her considerable abilities. Have fun (and come back often)!
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UnknownGoalkeeper Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the watch! I know I'm late 😭😂
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Flowering Vine by a-kid-at-heart Thanks for the watch :iconpinkmarmalade:
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Dawgit Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2017
Thanks for the :D (Big Grin) 
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King-of-Dark-Titans Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2016
lovely style!
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TreeChilld Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you!
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King-of-Dark-Titans Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2016
It's a true honor, talented inspired magician! :D  
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